Unemployed....

and relieved. Yes as crazy as it sounds I am relieved. For those of you who know I have been working at Ensign Federal Credit Union for 4.5 years and my employement ended yesterday. Yesterday felt almost surreal to me, like it hadnt quite sunk in yet. This morning it finally hit me when my alarm clock went off and I realized I didnt have anywhere to go. I feel like I need to blog about this because I have so much on my mind and this was a part of my life for quite a number of years.
I have become so close and made so many friends there, and have been through so many things with people that I felt so attached in different ways.
I will not miss the work at Ensign. I feel like I have been being "abused" and underappreciated as an employee for a few years. I really do take pride in my work and believe that I was a good employee but I refuse to be given ultimatums and be treated like I dont matter.
It will the hardest to not see one of my best friends Kimmy every day. We have worked together since I started and I have grown to love her because she has always been there for me when I needed her most. There are many other co workers who I will also miss. And as crazy as it sounds I feel like I have gotten close to so many members over the past few years that I will miss them too.
I really enjoyed trying to help people take on their finances and do different things with their lives to try and make it better. It is very fulfilling to see someones life change because of the help that you were able to give them.
Im not sure where to go from here... Im still processing it all in my head. I also believe that with prayer and the Lords help I will be directed where to go. In this bad economy it has been a blessing to help be a provider to my family with all of the things in my life being in limbo right now... BUT I know that things do happen for a reason. This may be a hard few weeks but I will get through and hopefully be happier. I get to sleep in hopefully and just be with my kids. Being with my family is what truely is important and what brings true happiness.
They say that in our life we wear different hats so for now I will be hanging up my hat or name badge and be moving on to something new and exciting.