Unemployed....

and relieved. Yes as crazy as it sounds I am relieved. For those of you who know I have been working at Ensign Federal Credit Union for 4.5 years and my employement ended yesterday. Yesterday felt almost surreal to me, like it hadnt quite sunk in yet. This morning it finally hit me when my alarm clock went off and I realized I didnt have anywhere to go. I feel like I need to blog about this because I have so much on my mind and this was a part of my life for quite a number of years.
I have become so close and made so many friends there, and have been through so many things with people that I felt so attached in different ways.
I will not miss the work at Ensign. I feel like I have been being "abused" and underappreciated as an employee for a few years. I really do take pride in my work and believe that I was a good employee but I refuse to be given ultimatums and be treated like I dont matter.
It will the hardest to not see one of my best friends Kimmy every day. We have worked together since I started and I have grown to love her because she has always been there for me when I needed her most. There are many other co workers who I will also miss. And as crazy as it sounds I feel like I have gotten close to so many members over the past few years that I will miss them too.
I really enjoyed trying to help people take on their finances and do different things with their lives to try and make it better. It is very fulfilling to see someones life change because of the help that you were able to give them.
Im not sure where to go from here... Im still processing it all in my head. I also believe that with prayer and the Lords help I will be directed where to go. In this bad economy it has been a blessing to help be a provider to my family with all of the things in my life being in limbo right now... BUT I know that things do happen for a reason. This may be a hard few weeks but I will get through and hopefully be happier. I get to sleep in hopefully and just be with my kids. Being with my family is what truely is important and what brings true happiness.
They say that in our life we wear different hats so for now I will be hanging up my hat or name badge and be moving on to something new and exciting.

Life is a Vacation..

No thats not right I JUST WISH it were a vacation. So Im finally getting to blog about my super fun family vacation. We were gone for a whole week! which was awesome only I had tons of stuff to get caught up on last week and I was just in a funk all week and just felt lazy. We spent the first part of the week with my family at Disneyland and relaxing at Newport Beach and we also went to see the Newport Beach temple which is absolutely amazing. It was so cute to see my kids at Disneyland. It was Laynies 4th B-day so she had fun wearing her princess hat and seeing all the princesses. Peyton loved all the rides that he rode as well as Ms Laynie. The other half of the week we rented a beach house with the Evans Family in Mission Beach that was just steps away from the sand!! It was nicer that we expected and we had a great time. We built sand castles, rode the beach cruisers, and just hung out and ate some good food. I attempted to have my sister do some family pics on the beach but the weather and my kids were not cooperating. Im hoping to make it a tradition every year to rent a beach house and just hang out and have a good time. Here are some pics from the trip. Enjoy!

Mr Toads Wild Ride

Jungle Cruise

The Birthday Girl


Daddys Baby

Party till you drop

At the Newport Beach temple grounds

We could not keep Peyton aka Mudd Monster out of the sand!

Beach Babe

We went to a Padres game and Haley and I were bored

The view from the beach house

My sisters and my lil Laynie

The beach house crew

My parents at the beach house

Need to start saving so I can retire here <3

From the mouth of Laynie

This girl says the funniest stuff... Last night there was a little spider running across the tile and I told matt to kill it and then I told Laynie to do the girlie thing and if she ever see's a spider to run from it. So this was her response.
LAYNIE: "Mom the only spiders that bite are the one's who dont have a family and no one loves them."

haha I was laughing so hard when she said that I dont know where she comes up with this stuff.

** The next post will be the pics from the vacation!! YEAH

Cinco de Mayo baby!!! (yes its early)

we are leaving on vacation so I wanted to this before I forgot. Yes my Laynie was born on Cinco de Mayo back in 2005 so here actual birthday is 5-5-05. When I tell people that they always look at me weird. But I knew from the day that my Laynie entered my life that she was something unique and a one of a kind. Before she came into our lives I was never overly excited about having kids, I wasnt the typical teenage girl who loved to babysit and be mrs. mommy. I did not know what I missing until I met her. The pregnancy went by so slow especially at then end when I was so big that random people would stop me in the parking lot and ask if I was going to pop! (you gotta love people). Laynie entered this world around 11:15am and weight 7lbs. She was such a pretty baby. I was mesmorized when I saw her that it immediatly brought tears to my eyes. She has grown up so quickly and I dont know what I would do with out her. My mom says that her personality is a exactly like me when I was her age. She is so strong willed and has a mind of her own. Laynie loves to play dress up with her friends, ballet, sing and colors me a new picture every day.

Dear Ms Laynie aka my lil laynie bugg
I hope you know how much I love you and always will. You have changed my life for the better and made it so meaningful. You are such a spiritual and insightful little girl who always seems to make me proud. I love listening to your stories and you are so good to your brother. I look forward to what the future has for you. Remember to say your prayers and always brush your teeth.
Xoxo Mommy