Well here goes....

Yes its me Mandy updating the blog.. I know its crazy its been way to long but I cant sleep and my heart is full.

At this time in my life I feel so grateful for all of the many things that I have been blessed with in this life. Sometimes I feel like I get caught up in the little things and forget how i have been given so much. As I have been watching my kids grow older and interact more with each other over the last few months, i feel so grateful for their joyous spirits and their health. I love them more than life itself and more than i love myself. When I was growing up as a teenager I was never the type of girl that wanted a bunch of kids. I think I always knew I would be a mother, but was sure what that would intell. Now that I have these beautiful children I cant imagine my life without them. They make me laugh and want to scream everyday. I have been so blessed with these wonderful spirits and I feel like it is my duty in life to guide them, teach them everything I can.

My little Laynie is such a mirror of my personality that it crazy. She is just as sassy and stubborn as me. She is very smart for her age and cant wait to start school. We have been doing preschool with her at home to save money and she looks forward to it and catches on quickly. She is still enjoying doing her ballet but I am going to look into putting her into a more advanced class than the rec center b/c she loves it so much.


My little love bug Peyton is such a mommys boy that i love it most of the time but other times its a lot harder to get things done. He is very sensitive for a boy but loves to play rough with his toys and sissy. We are starting to potty train and he is doing so well with number 1! He makes me laugh so much because of all the funny things he says and does. He has his daddys happy go lucky personality but looks just like his mommy:)

Matt continues to amaze me all the time. Im so lucky to have a husband who tries to spoil me rotten by giving me my way. He loves my unconditionally all the time even at times where I have not loved myself. I had asked him on easter why did you pick me and he told me that it was because I was hot but I was humble..haha that was not the only reason but what a good guy. He really is my soul mate, and i know we were meant for each other. He was trying to get on with the highway patrol and did all the testing and did well but it has been put on hold with the state having such a big budget shortage. I was so proud of him for trying to better his situation though. I hope that it will eventually work out but for now he is going to try to start taking some classes at the college again.


I also feel the need to talk about my baby sis Haley. I want her to know how proud I am of her. She is such a special friend to me. I love both of my sisters but Haley has grown up so much in the last year and is such a talented young lady. I know she has been having a hard time lately but I also know she will get through it.

My Mom makes my life right now possible because she helps me watch the kids at night after working all day herself which I know is not easy. She is a good grandma to my kids and I know that when they are older they will appreciate being so close with their nanny. I love my family and I am grateful for their love and support that they give.

Now to the hard part where I am going to talk about me. For some reason tonight I feel a little bit emmotional. I have been having a hard time lately for lots of reasons but been trying to keep a positive outlook. I am for sure in denial about turing 28 partly because I cant believe im this old, and it makes me scared because if times goes by this fast I dont want my life to pass my by. Our house is still in limbo as we are now in a lawsuit against Bank of America, which still keeps me up at night. I hope and pray that everything works out the way its supposed to but its so hard to not know. I am still trying to loose my 10 lbs that has taken up residency but its so hard to stay focused. I am still doing makeup which I love. I am finally doing something I am so passionate about,I feel like I have learned so much. I hope to keep continuing to get better so that I can work for myself one day doing free lance makeup artistry. For now I will keep putting in my time even though the schedule can get a little crazy. Last sunday I was able to go to church after missing 3 weeks b/c I had to work and my heart was so full because I knew that was where i needed to be. When I work on sundays I am almost angry because I want to be at church with my family. My co-workers nicknamed me Mandy the Mormon. They like to poke fun at me but I try not to let it bother me. It has definetly been an adjustment working here but my attitude is to try and be an example to those around me and it has been. So many people have walked up to me and asked why I am so different than the people I work with and my response is that I just have different morals and beliefs. They are shocked but they respect me for it. I enjoyed last weeks conference so much and I feel like so many things are what I needed to hear. I often stress about the small things in life when they dont matter. I know I am blessed. I know I am loved. Yes there are things that could be better... but there are always things that could be worse.

There is lots more I could say but I will save it so it doesnt take me so long to blog again.